I'm back....308lbs

Back to blogging. I have one rule for my family, friends, followers....I don't want to hear "It's OK that you got off track, we all have our setbacks." It's OK for you to think that, and I appreciate that everyone is trying to be positive, but it's not OK for me to get off track. When I was blogging last year my last four or five posts were all exactly the same...lame excuses as to why I was not following my plan. If any of you start to see that pattern DON'T BE NICE!! Tell me to snap out of it, quit whining, etc. Please remind me that I am trying to do this because I desperately want to have a baby and it ain't gonna happen if I'm "off track" for months at a time. Be honest rather than polite....please?

OK, so I'm seeing this great therapist and she noticed that I spoke most positively about my weight loss when I was either working together with a co-worker (Shelley, you and me on Weight Watchers was the best), or blogging about it like I did last year. So here I go with the blog. I'm going to email my therapist to keep me accountable, but would also love it if any of you would be interested in helping out.

One of the things she suggested is that I plan my meals one day at a time rather than thinking about the whole week. She also reminded me that it is OK to eat the Lean Cuisines, Smart Ones, etc. I don't have to go all hard core. She also pointed out that I am killing myself trying to make every little thing. Its OK to go to Wendy's or Subway and get a healthy sandwich or salad. I'm also going to try to make Whole Foods my go-to place when I'm out and about, as opposed to McD's which is my current go-to place.

So my goals for this week are:

• Blog about the plan
• Recruit a friend to be a supporter (someone I can talk about my ups and downs with, someone I can walk/workout with, someone who will be honest and question me when I start to fall off track)
• Email my therapist with my current day's meal plan and whether or not I stuck to the previous days' meal plan
• Weigh in weekly and email my therapist with that as well